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Moment of Awesome - Laurie Collins

Hope apologizes for getting Laurie captured and tortured. Laurie explains why she doesn't have to.

"Hope, why exactly do you wish me to blame you for what happened?" Laurie asked carefully.

It had taken Laurie quite some time to come out of the disassociation that her torture had caused, and she still had trouble from time to time believing that she'd actually gotten out of that place.

Add in the anger and guilt that she hadn't been capable of protecting Hope and her friend from being taken as she should have, having been trained as an X-man for just such occurrences, and it was one of many reasons that she was no longer on the rosters by her own request - not that they'd had much choice after her current injury.

She was not about to let Hope blame herself for something that as an adult, and an X-man had been her job.

"Because I carry some responsibility in this as well. Asked for the FGH to be checked deeper or something like that..." Hope's voice trailed of, not quite sure. "I find that often when bad things happen we wish to take responsibility, or spend an unwarranted amount of time second guessing situations or choices we made in favor of what we suppose were better choices, or more favorable conditions."

Laurie smiled softly, aware that she was talking to her own proclivities as much as she was advising Hope. The younger woman had a fire in her, a need not just for knowledge but a desire to see and control her destiny.

It wasn't a wholly unfamiliar urge.

"There will always be days where no matter how aware or ready you are, things will go wrong. It does nobody any good to second guess choices made in severe duress. You must simply accept that you and I did the best we could with the tools and the knowledge we had in those moments."

Hope didn't quite have a reply to that... yet she still could not shake the burden she felt lying on her shoulders. "I see where you coming from, but..." She raked her fingers through her hair, fighting to find the words to explain more. "We can keep telling ourselves that, but that will not prevent things... not something else..."

"Accepting what was, does not mean moving blindly forward," Laurie replied gently, pulling Hope's tablet toward her. "What you are doing currently, learning from experience and seeking to be better in the future, that's a good thing. There is no changing the past, we can only seek not to repeat it. Now, show me what Doug has been teaching you, maybe we can both move forward together?"

Hope gave her a tiny smile. "It will take some work to get that one to sink in..." Then she pointed out something on her tablet. "We have been working on..."